So, it has been almost a month since my last post. Life in Reiki Sanctuary has been totally peaceful. Nothing terribly exciting, just normal. However, this does not mean that the normal days are done. Because those, I am discovering, are part of being normal.
I would like to thank those who have mailed me. Indeed, you are true friends. And, as promise, let me just share the unsettling period that I am currently experiencing.
11:11
It has been rather an unsettling new year. One that caught me unexpectedly. One that presents itself with a feeling of void. Of nothingness. Of silence. Of life and death. Of sadness and joy. Of heaven and earth. I am feeling out-of-synch (most of the time) and my mind and soul can be all over the place at any one time.
I am alright. There is a sense of joy and peace within. But, in some unspecified way, there is a feeling of restlessness hits me like a ton of bricks.
I was told it is soul cleansing. We all go through it at one time or other. When it happens, it can leave us with an empty feeling. That is exactly what this is all about, I guess. For the next substantive ideology to fill the Law of Vacuum. For all the dreams, and the dreams within, to leave and prepared us for the next journey.
Year 2009 and Reiki Sanctuary is revelation 11:11. Both add-up to digit 11. It is a human journey on the pollen path - a humanity's leap to the heart chakra. I am not into numerology but the emotions that have engulfed me, of late, lead me into searching for directions. In my awareness, 11 is everywhere. From the time of the day whenever I am checking for the time to the constant 'haunt' of 11 in my mind.
For what is happening, I am honouring it. There is a huge void within me. Not of sorrow nor loneliness. Not of anger nor disappointment. Though I am filled with a feeling of lost, and restlessness, I am at peace. I am thankful for the presence of loved ones around me at this time. They are God sent and, with all their time surrounding me, I know I am loved.
In the void, I am constantly echoed with topics and prompting thoughts. The energy that calls for considerable reflection. The energy that is shaping for reality. Of an embodiment of a new cycle of evolution to begin.
I feel I tried too hard. In my hindrance personality, I must let it go. I must stop to think that I have done good when it has not. I must let go what is not meant for me. I must forgive myself. And I need to be forgiven.
May I find my true self soon.
Meanwhile, wishing all of you a Happy and Prosperous Lunar New Year!
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