I am praying. Maybe not enough. Maybe too hard.
I am very aware of my grief. It is not easy to deceive myself that Ruby's gone. The acceptance is in place. It has been accorded with love. That, death is certain. That, it is a natural process. Still, I am experiencing profound sadness. I am all warped with feelings of emptiness. Of despair. Of yearning and deep loneliness. I still cry a lot. From nowhere, the tears will just begin to flow. I am missing a beloved...
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
This is for me. For me to take the strength, and courage, to move on. For me to heal myself. For me, with all my reflection into the past, will bring light within. To reach for the tranquility. Only when there is tranquility within myself that I will find light, love and peace elsewhere.
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Dearest Ruby,
I love you very much. You have always been so dear in my heart. That, for the last eight years, whatever I do, it has always centered around...
Sunday, March 22, 2009
One big lesson that Ruby is providing, with her departure, is about the reality of us being a human. That, it is so hard to let go. That, with such a loss, we can easily rack into the past. That, imperfections are so big. And guilt is so hard to wipe out.
The mind keeps wondering. We question our actions. We ask the limits of intention. We doubt the validation of deeds. Beyond all, we express upon the truth of all purposes.
The day we can reconcile it all, Ruby will be very proud of us. In...
Friday, March 20, 2009
May You Rest In Peace
Ruby
Ruby
Cavalier King Charles Spaniel
06 November 2000 - 20 March 2009
You Will Always Be Remembered
About eight years ago, we found you. You came into our lives because we wanted to have you. And only you. We brought you into our home, our life, and you brought along so much love and joy. You became very precious. You knew that. In return, you took care of us. Always reminding us to embrace unconditional love.
When we wronged you, you were delighted to forgive. ...
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
12 years ago, I decided to join a group for a retreat. Spent a week away from civilization. Away from the outside world. It was a time, and place, of solitude. A great deal of the days was filled with relearning about Self. About the consciousness of the mind. About personal sense and knowingness - in our attitudes, beliefs and sensitivities. About the awareness within it and how the sense of self realizes into remaining awake.
While there was aplenty stream of consciousness, the one thing that changed...
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Over the last few weeks, it is day 50 today to be exact, my aunt has been hospitalized. A woman who never thought, and often avoided the hospitals, would be warded this long. From just a vertigo attack - probably due to her blood pressure, now the doctors are advising us to be vigilant of her condition. We are told that her condition is critical.
Three weeks ago, she was placed in ICU, for two weeks, when she contracted the MRSA bacteria. Sadly, she is now suffering with a side effect of Frontal Lobe Syndrome.
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Monday, March 09, 2009
Alas! With our email [over the weekend] informing you guys of our new email address, it had extended with a little surprise [to many] too. You now know that we have relocated. That on 20 October, 2008 we had moved out of Hertford - once, a place that was filled with your loving presence, to a new Reiki Sanctuary in Jurong East.And, that the mountain-me has started blogging too. *surprise! surprise!* Here's wishing you a happy read - ah! and I can see some of you already yawning! Yeap, this blog will be one year...
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