Moon Temple Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Friday, July 29, 2011

You have no idea how much I love all the people that I know.  They know even less.


I tell myself, for today, I shall live for my Being.  For my consciousness.  For my awareness.  For my light.  I am born alone and I shall leave this world alone too.   Aloneness is our very nature though we are not fully aware of it.

I tell my breath, for today, to live as though it is its last.  Yesterday is the past.  It has passed.  Today, I shall live in the now.  For today needs to be created for all the other days ahead to follow.

I tell my body, for today, to heighten all its senses to enjoy the beauty of Mother Earth.  The Gaia of all the wondrous things around me.  Oh, what a beautiful world it will be. 

I tell my mind, for today, just to focus on the dominant thought and not to fret on small things.  Whatever I make, whatever I do, I am in-charge.  I am responsible for my joy, for my peace and for all the blessings into everything possible.

I tell my soul, for today, to reach out to God.  To be one with Him, to be Him.  For in Him, I will be able to feel my soul.  For in Him, I shall embrace the highest good that it flows easily back to me.  For in Him, nothing can disturb the calm and peace of my soul, and of the world I live in.

I yearn to be intimate with my soul.  To feel the light of consciousness.  To feel the light growing and glowing.  That it shall not fade, not even for the slightest moment.  The more I can be one with it, i know I will be able to feel the highest intensity of tranquility, of silence - the infinite ultimate energy.

For today, I  must admit failure.  I must admit how fragile my Being has been.  I must admit on the imperfections to be truly human.  I have been constantly filled with unnecessary tension based on judgments about the past and the expectations about the future.

I fail to fill my heart with constant joy.  I fail to occupy my mind with persistent peace.  I fail in extending love.  I fail in providing faithful and loyal strength.  I fail to live in the now.  I fail to keep things steady.  I fail to let the light stays permanent.  The less I live in the past and of the future, the more I shall be able to see the brilliance of the present.

I have to be a Nowist.
To learn about living in the Now-ness.
Would not it be wonderful if nothing else matters?

Am I really grateful for all the things that have come in contact with my soul?  Am I really grateful for being who I am?  For being awake.  For being aware.  For being conscious.  I am alive.  I am life.  I let life live me.

I am so thankful to where my life has brought me today.  I am so thankful for the journey.  I am so thankful for the days, the weeks, the months and the years.  There is nothing that I would want to change them all.  All the experiences and insights are just necessary.  They are designed As Is.  They begin with being present to what is and without any self deception.  I am so thankful for the fall and rise.

I am so thankful for having a loving family, for having my parents, for having my sisters.  I am so thankful for the spirit, the energy, the virtues.  I am so thankful to be a part of the big thing.

I am so thankful for knowing all my friends, near and far.  Here and before.  I am so thankful to Alan, my spiritual master.  I am so thankful to Pi, a spiritual friend.  I am so thankful to Amina, a spiritual comrade.  I am so thankful to Franky, my spiritual soulmate.

I am so thankful to the beautiful skies, through thick and thin, that bring many more friends closer.  There are Molly, Ann, Peg, Greg, Norin, Jianhong .. and the many many more.  These are the people that have come into my live, though some may have quickly go.  They leave their footprints in my heart.  And, I am never, ever the same.

I am so grateful for the Ayam Penyet that I had for dinner earlier in the week.  I am so grateful for the bed, for the vacuum cleaner, for the fibre broadband.  I am so grateful for Reiki Sanctuary.  I am so grateful that I do with the house cleaning.  I am so grateful for the lift upgrading program.

I am blessed that I can walk fine and think fine.  I am blessed that I can choose to separate my thoughts.  I am blessed that I can focus.  That I am aware.  That I am connected to infinite intelligence.  I am blessed that I know I am more than my mind.  I am blessed I am Being.  I am Source.

Love is a never ending stream.  And so is my unwanted sorrow.  Each energy fans the flame of my breath.  In each moment of my consciousness.  In each ray of light deeps into the moon temple of my emotions.

How it evolves with each waking moment.  In my present.  In my body.  I feel it through my breath flowing in and out, effortlessly filling my lungs, my veins, my brain.  I can feel its life within me.  I am connected to these energies.  I am connected to its Being.  I am connected to its Source.

For today, I shall empower a magnifying healing to both my outer and inner worlds.  I shall empower to take, and gain, control of my breath.  I shall be committed to live life with joy, abundance and compassion.  I should be connected to my ways of sitting, standing, sleeping, speaking and acting.

It is only through a constant deep felt appreciation of the value and miracle of being itself that my live will take on real meaning.  That my relationship with others will become imbued with intelligence and compassion.  That I will find effective solutions to the ever growing problems I am facing.

For today, I should shine on the moon temple towards the direction of the sun.  There is light to everything, even in darkness.  There is joy in peace.  There is peace in joy.  There is happiness in sorrow.  There is sorrow in happiness.

We just know that it is all essential to life.  It breathes an immense importance not only to physical life, but to the very meaning of what we are and what we can become.

I should shine on reality, on spirituality and on consciousness.  I can only see the light when I allow the breath of life to manifest fully through me and others.  This is the beginning of real transformation, both for myself and for the world around me.

And it all begins with awareness of the breath.  It begins with the moon temple of our body as a sacred light, a doorway to the source of all being.  With each awakening, there comes a radical new understanding.  It shall not just be the understanding that the immensity of Truth can never be comprehended by the mind.  It is the understanding that beyond all our senses, however good or bad we may judge them to be, we are Source.

For today, I pray to do the right things knowing that life can end anytime.  If today is my last day, I am praying that everyone close knows that I love them.  That every souls that have crossed into my path are loved.

[Continue Reading ...]

When Days Are Numbered Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Monday, July 18, 2011

Yes, it’s called samsara. Take a number, get in line, we could be here awhile. Some of us have a plan to get outta here early.


In just a period of two months, I come across three situations where I am told that so-and-so has only XX numbers of days to live.  The term that is used, and I learn that a hospital would describe it, is 'awaiting the end of life'.  In each situation, there is a voice of sadness.  There is a feeling of loss.  It brings the whole family shattered with uneasy feelings.

First, there was Ruth 'Roofie' Thomson.  Then, it was the mother of a close friend.  These two had recently passed on and May Their Souls Rest In Peace.  And, just two days ago, I have been told that another friend, Susan Ho is now at her Stage Four of cancer. Her doctors has given her notice of 'awaiting the end of life'.

Personally, when I am told of it, I feel rather uneasy.  I feel that the phrase or term is rather distasteful but yet 'awaiting the end of life' is exactly right and appropriate.  It is exactly an expected medical prognosis for a situation to happen for a prediction of a highly probable course. 

Perhaps, it has to do with my take on separation and on death where a permanent departure can no longer be avoided.  It evokes a feeling of grief.  It evokes my past experiences on the loss of loved ones. It saddens me to feel the pains inflicted into my friends. Of how they would be grieving, of how they would be adjusting their lives and the emptiness and the sorrowful feelings that shall follow with the days after that.

Admittedly, I used not too good at handling such a situation.  I could be very much affected when there was a broken human engagement; a departure.  I could be all bummed-out when someone passed on.  I felt that I had been robbed of an earthly unison in human relations.  I felt broken and sad and there was a creeping sorrow that tailed me for days.

I felt a sense of loss.  In fact, I can still feel such emotions these days but less 'traumatized'.

It has to do with the discomforts that follow thereon where life, for those of us left behind, with new adjustments that have to be made.  To learn to live life without our loved ones.  It is such a situation where now made me filled with the sense of realization of my own time and then to the emotions of those people that I will, eventually, leave behind.

Being one who has probably had fair share of losses in my life: the death of my parents, the death of my eldest sister, the death of my beloved companion with Ruby, the death of my nephew; I have come to accept a fairly healthy attitude to death and dying.  While initially I can be all bummed-out to grief, death provides me the lesson about grieving, letting go and moving on.

Yes, it is a reality that our days are numbered.  One of the primary goals in our lives should be to prepare for our last day.  This is a call that many of us would prefer not to think about.  To some, it is a taboo (and many would think it is just 'rude' and plain 'negative') to think that we should live lives everyday to prepare for death.  It actually surprises me when some of my friends would dismiss such a guaranteed thing in the big equation of life.

While it is true that we need to lead a life to enjoy and to live a fullest life, I feel that one should also go on with his or her life to live with absolute quality.  We have to follow our passion, to figure out what it is that we love to do and have courage to do that. There must always be a feeling of peace to accompany, to all our actions and thoughts.  There must always be an equation of balance and harmony, to all our deeds and relationships.  It is not about the quantity to what we can achieve but to the heart's attitude that counts.  Oscar Wilde wrote "Men die for what they want to be true".

But, what is the truth?  This is something that we, as an individual, should find for ourselves.  Our characters, our attitudes, our ways of life cover a wide array of concepts.  From the moment our feet touch the floor in the morning until our head hits the pillow, we leave with imprints.  Yes, imprints that last to those we will leave behind.  We just need to create the 'truth' to our legacy that we will, eventually and certainly, leave it one day.

How far should, or would, we go to prepare and undertake ourselves for that 'ultimate' when the plug to life is pulled off?  Can we, honestly, speak with remarkable candor about such end of life matters?  Realistically, such a situation has become much more complicated than we can think of.

Death is unavoidable.  Its time is uncertain.  Our only security is the strength of our practice.  Susan Ho, my friend who is now struggling with 'awaiting for end of life', makes me deep in reflection and remembering.  The thing that stands out clear is that death is simply a part of life.  It is just the natural progression of life.

Her situation reminds me, and hopefully to all her family and friends, to consider how we can prepare for death.  How we can consider our dying to benefit ourselves and others. 

As I begin to prepare for my death consciously, I feel I am preparing for a renewed sense of appreciation for all that is precious to me in my life.  I must learn not to postpone life and awaken to a deeper compassion and a richer, more meaningful existence.  That all the ordinary and simple events in my life must take on a deeper significance.

These two months have been a confronting journey for me.  I am being pushed into a territory that has brought up a heap of reminders about uncomfortable areas where I am yet to clean up in my life.  There are trashes in Reiki Sanctuary not sorted, affairs that still to put in order, responsibilities that been long delayed, words left unsaid and gratitude unexpressed. Perhaps, there are far more things which I cannot think right now and have conveniently omitted them.  Perhaps, there are far more things that I have taken for granted not knowing them now.

Susan has decided to spend her limited days to finish off some important personal things, to tour Japan and Australia, and as she said it "for the last time to close some chapters".  It is what that makes her happy that makes her life full and complete.  Giving an action, and voice, to such fundamental material represents one piece of unfinished business that is now filled with peace.

For what she feels important to finish, I am praying for her peace.  I am praying that she is filled with joy knowing that all her responsibilities are complete.  That she can move on with spirit of love, and be loved.

For me, I find solace in the fact that I have known Susan.  I am glad that this good and decent human being has played a part in my life.  I am very thankful that I have had given this opportunity to know her.  Friends like her are so few and far between.  It is important that she knows this.  It is important that she lives her last days knowing that she is loved.

.. and my prayers,

for her courage, 

for her strength,
for her family 

and for her friends

continue ..

[Continue Reading ...]

No Dimension Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Saturday, July 09, 2011

In many ways, life is never more precious than at the moment of death. Second only to birth itself. 

Sometimes I wonder. How would my life today be should I have had taken a different course earlier in life. Should I have had taken that dream job, just after school, to be a flight steward and not to the career in the banking industry. Would the sky, its glamourous lifestyle (in the 70s and 80s) and all the travel to the different countries make a difference?

Sometimes I wonder. How would my life today be should I have had a different group of friends. Should I have had mingled with another social association and stayed with the 'atas' (elite). Would it change with the way I think or, perhaps, behave? Would it make a difference to who I would become?

Sometimes I wonder. Should I have had not moved out of my parent's place (when I was in my 20s) to venture my independence and learned to be on my own, would I have that great respect for them today? Sometimes I wonder, would a family nurture me or would it be the free will of nature that makes a man. Would it make a different to the way I feel about family values? Would I hold a different ideology for ethical and moral units?

Sometimes I wonder.  What would my world be today should there was no technology.  Should there have had been no Bill Gates.  No IBM and no Intel.  Nor a presence of love and the absence of interests for personal computers.  Should I have had not met a friend, Jimmy who was willing to teach me everything about computing.  Should I have had declined his kind offer to learn.  What will I be doing today?  How would I be spending my time, say, in the search for more knowledge?  Say, in connecting through the world wide web with families and friends?  Say, in my desire to communicate with the Universe?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should creativity be limited, should imaginations be restricted, should fantasies be confined, would there be endless desires for endless choices?  Would these limit our emotions to lessen on, say, greed, hate, disappointment or sorrow?  Would there not be a wide varieties on the fusion of processes?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should I have had given up many of my hopes, would there be a beacon of love left in my soul?  Would I get to a part of where I am today?  Would I have learned that I am stronger than I think?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should I abandon and ease off all those past events and have had taken a different path, would my life today bring more meaning to my own purpose?  Would my spirit take a different dimension?  Would my emotions make any difference today?  Would, with all that I have considered good increase, or decrease, in size, extent and range?  Will the intensity of fulfillments categorize into another form?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should I let myself to wonder.  I wish there is someone whom I could just throw myself in and shared with me about destiny - but not the way the dictionary defines it.  Not by way of the conventional wisdom.  Yes, so long as I want to believe, my life has had taken a shape not because of (as The FreeDictionary defines it):

- The inevitable or necessary fate to which a particular person or thing is destined; one's lot;

-  A predetermined course of events considered as something beyond human power or control; or

- The power or agency thought to determine events.

In some ways, we would think that destiny is our escape clause that life is all predetermined.  That all events and circumstances integrate together.  It will always going to unfold in a certain way.  Despite me and not because of me.

In some ways, should I allow myself to think that destiny has taken its free predetermined role, I would have wasted so much time making tough decisions, taking those chances to have happened.  I would not have then got to deal with my habits, overcoming those obstacles and working hard just to burst my arse to create for a 'better' life.  Hence, what is the point of working hard, taking chances, getting uncomfortable and setting goals?

The thing is, at the expense of all our wondering mind, we are our own creator.  The events, and all these courses along our journey, follow and have been dictated by how we think.  Each thought may take different path and route but the greatest voyage any human being can ever undertake is that of his own creation.

I should, and it is not another 'perhaps', admit that all of my thoughts, my behaviours, my reaction, my plans and goals in life, or part thereof, have been predetermined by my own creation.  How each event will always going to unfold into certain ways.  It is, and will be, the most destructive notion should I allow myself to think that the paths I had taken was pre-ordained and non-negotiable.

Re-creation does not bring any form of rebirth but the reproduction with conscious creativity is.  We have become desperate to change our higher force from the physical to the spiritual level.  We yearn and, continuously reaching up into the unknown, hoping to regenerate.  Hoping that a different event may have a different outcome.  Many of us live our life to remain immature and keep whimpering that we are not good enough to have all the experiences that we (should) feel.

Our world, my world, has become as it is because we allow it to be.  We let, unconsciously, the sense of guilt to prevent and impede us to implore greater possibilities.  To do more than we can.  To achieve more than we could.  We allow ourselves to feel unworthy most of the time.

The best lesson that I learn about life is to allow myself to grow spiritually and to learn to overcome my emotional blocks.   To free myself from all the fragmented forms that are being perceived as errors.  Our journey through time and space, a journey that is completed, must conspire between God and our free choice.

I am responsible for what I see.  I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the goal I would achieve.  Only then, that everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.  I, and all of us, have chosen all the particular events and circumstances of our individual lives.

Our wondering mind, my wondering mind, inflicts pain from our ego choices.  All those painful events are necessary for us to learn from our darkest dreams and wove them into a tapestry of light.  Regardless of all their appearances, it will ultimately lead us to greater good.  We must have a greater insight, and awareness, that it has been our defences from our ego choices that not let us see the blessing shine in every step that we ever took.

Life here on Mother Earth is a spiritual warfare.  We are constantly fighting to produce positive results (and those whose work) and stripping away of all drama so that the physical and spiritual Self can be separated.  We have to find within ourselves the sincere need to grow, to quieten the mind and the emotions.

Everything that is around us, everything in the Universe is energy and a manifestation of energy.  We just have to learn to grow to add a quality and depth to life.

[Continue Reading ...]