There's Light in The Voice Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Friday, August 05, 2011

The world is so often a reflection of ourselves.  Unfortunately, we often allow our internal lenses to distort our view.

There is just something special about these two kids.  Something that is truly amazing when they open up their voices, through their emotions, to sing.  To me, they are an inspiration not because that they can sing and sing well but of their abilities to bring out the special light in them.  It is, almost like, where God has placed emotional zeals in their hearts to move others.

Perhaps, their purpose is about healing.  About, when one is listening to their voices, opening an emotional release.  About assisting in the process to remove a trauma, fear, anger, guilt, shame and anxiety.  About enabling one to accelerate a personal transformation, allowing an individual to move forward positively and productively in life.

I have met few children and adolescents who display amazing spiritual abilities.  All too often, these children and adolescents that I have met have a family unit to lean on.  In other words, they grow up in an environment being loved, cared and supported.  Seldom that I come across angelic children who have to grow up without family bonding, without parents where their journey have been a lonely one.

The one thing that I found common to all of them is the fact that they never took life for granted.  Their light turns darkness to vanish and to continue to shine to the world around them.

It is very rare for me to watch music videos on YouTube.  I just do not have the natural liking to watch them.  Asmuchas I like listening to music, somehow a concert and music videos do not fill me with much excitement.  The noisier it is, the more I tend to feel very much disconnected.  To me, a music is what feelings sound like and that it is best played in the background. 

However, here I would like to thank a dear friend who sent me the links of these two beautiful angels.  I want to remember them by blogging it here.  It is a worthwhile effort.  It is, indirectly, my prayers for their well being too.  For their great future.  For a blessed journey for a far better, and happier, tomorrow.

I found myself soaked with their angelic voices when watching the video.  Somehow I felt good watching them.  It moved me tremendously.  It provided me with a good cry.

But, I am not sure what is what watching them.  Yes, their tragic life stories sadden me but they are rather nonchalant when sharing them.  I should feel proud of their spirits, of how they have come to accept it gracefully.

Surely, there must be something about their voices.  You just have to listen to them (do get ready with tissues) ...

First Video - Uudam

For English subtitles, Click This Link

Indeed, a beautiful boy with an angelic vision.  When asked what was his dream, his replies brought chill bumps all over me.  He said "My dream is to invent a special ink.  When the ink is blotted onto the ground, the whole world will turn into green grassland."

Second Video - Sung-bong Choi

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Coping With Grief Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I am praying.  Maybe not enough.  Maybe too hard.

I am very aware of my grief.  It is not easy to deceive myself that Ruby's gone.  The acceptance is in place.  It has been accorded with love.  That, death is certain.  That, it is a natural process.  Still, I am experiencing profound sadness.  I am all warped with feelings of emptiness.  Of despair.  Of yearning and deep loneliness.  I still cry a lot.  From nowhere, the tears will just begin to flow.  I am missing a beloved soul.  There is just a void feeling to nurture and care for someone whom I love so much.  I still feel, somewhat in small degree, emotionally unstable.

Memories of her last day are still vivid.  Words that I spoke to her echoed with some guilt, somehow.  Ringing  sadness.  Words of hope, of good faith, could actually stove for higher good.  Mismatched between choices.  Landscaping of how fragile I am as her caregiver.

Guess, this blog will just have to bear with my healing process.  I am facing my feelings and will not suppress my grief.  I have to acknowledge the pain to avoid unresolved grief in the future.  Not to be trapped in complicated grief.  I want my grief to metamorphose into a loving memory.  Laid forever with a peaceful reminiscence of what love is all about.

For now, I am not going to tell myself how to feel nor am I going to tell myself that it is time to 'move on' or 'get over it'.  I am letting myself to feel whatever I feel without embarrassment or judgement.  It will be an invaluable lesson of reflection and realization.  Of my highest good.  For my highest good.  I want to believe it so.  To find new strength that will enable me to continue with my life's journey.  To regain peace of mind.

Her departure means the loss of a non-judgmental love source.  From a person, who used not in tune with a dog, her departure chokes me.  Emotionally.  Spiritually.

Ruby was not just a pet.  She was not.  Ruby was a trusted companion.  A partner.  She provided unwavering love.  Affection.  Companionship.  Qualities that are hard to match in human form.  She played a large part in me.  She weaved into fabric of my daily lives.  With her presence, she was my best source of unconditional love.  Becoming the ideal child and a true friend.  She listened without judgement.  Without reproach.  She accepted me exactly as I am.  Always there.  Ever forgiving and never hold grudges - no matter how much change I endure.

She was beyond companionship.  She lifted my spirits.

Even in her passing, she never failed to care.  The bonds that we had, none of them trivial or without value, carried on.  Somehow, the pain that I used to have is now gone.  My left frozen shoulder is no longer having the stinging needle pain.  So, is my left sole.  These pains, which I had them for so long, just disappeared the day she crossed over.

So, it is only a natural response that I am grieving.  She is a significant loss.  It is my emotional suffering when such love is being taken away.  Each moment, as I think about her role played in my life, and all the wonderful things she offered, I am not going to ignore the grief.  Nor will I try to keep it from surfacing.  For real healing to take place, it is necessary for me to face and actively deal with it.

Grief is never a series of stages.  It does not have the orderly and precise five syllabus of denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance - in that order.  It is a roller coaster, full of ups and downs.  Highs and lows.

My family and friends have given me great support.  Ruby is blessing me to have them around.  Most of them don't even have a dog in their life.  It is understandable if they could not understand how I could be so upset about losing just a pet.  Yet, for them to be around speaks volume.  For them to understand my grief is god-sent.  Their love makes the burden of my grief easier to carry.  I am very thankful.  Yes, I am.

My grief is taking me to embrace my spiritual and emotional realms.  To better equip me to live and love fully.  I am fortunate to cry, to tell stories and to reach out for comfort from my family and friends.  When it is time, I will just know when to move on with life and to let go when I am ready.

Time will lessen the intensity of my grief.  For now, there are just too much reminders.  They are anywhere and everywhere.  In sights.  In sounds.  In smells.

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