How Much Right is Right Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Tuesday, September 13, 2011

We all enjoy free will. With it, comes cause and effect. Use it wisely.

Often, and very often, we always feel that we are right in everything, about everything.  In carrying out an action.  In executing a decision.  In allowing mediation.  In submitting to other's follies.  In conceding another's decision.  In compromising a situation.  In giving in.

It would usually destroy many of us when we allow others to think that we are second rated and hopeless.  We become (unconsciously) disappointed should others have the slightest instance to think of that of us.

We always feel that we are the kindest, the humblest, the 'better-est' individual and not somebody else.  And, when it comes to sufferings, we tend to think that we suffer the most.  When it comes to hard work, we feel we have given it all.  When it comes to understanding, we brag on our empathy.

Our emotions defend our diminishing pride just to make sure that we are not going to be hurt.  Pride comforts us.  We resent others whom disqualify our needs to look good.  Who make us to become disconnected.  Such a situation arises when failure exceeds the resources for coping with our own failures.  When it shadows out what we wish others to see our true self. 

Often, we make ourselves to believe that we make less mistakes, we make less judgement.  We simply want to think that we are often correct, and stand corrected, in our own judgement, opinion and action.  It is the biggest human failure when we look for something outside of us to make us to feel better inside.

We conveniently fool ourselves that we are always 'the better one'.  Though, unwittingly, we would accept that we are imperfect, somehow our mind would twist it - The multitude  and magnitude of imperfections are bigger on somebody else.

It happens that we are so happened to appreciate satirical qualities of our crazy ego.  Perhaps, it is our disappointment (towards others) which is being thwarted in the opposite way of saying that we have placed high judgement for each other.

There is always this unspoken need in us to feel and be right.  In many instances, in asmuchas we want to deny it, the need to feel right makes us to think that we are better off taking charge of all circumstances.  That, it makes us feel that we are an intelligent Being.  Less, it kills our happiness.

We take defensive actions when someone tells us that we are lazy.  Almost immediately, we raise our voice.  Very quickly, we voice out excuses after excuses.  Our body language swings to become defensive.  To become aggressive.  People just do not like to be associated with such a word.  Or any other negative adjectives insulting our Ego.

Person A - "Aiya, you are just plain lazy to do housework lah."

Person B - "Please lah.  I am working everyday leh.  Work is already so stressful.  Anyway, even if I clean, someone else will mess it after that."

Really?
It is always the one-day laziness or tomorrow-I-will-do-it attitude that leads to more accumulation of clutters.  When we can spend a little time today and every day, for probably just half hour or slightly more, why do we choose to wait another day which probably will not happen?

Person A - "Hey, why aren't this task not completed?  It has taken you days.  You are just so lazy!"

Person B - "If you think it is so easy, then you do it lah!"

Ah!
How it is so easy to slam our frustrations without realizing the process of our own thought cycle.  Do we always have to pass sarcastic remark without realizing our own shortcomings?

Person C - "I guess if you are to be kinder and nicer with your approach, the sales staff will treat you well."

Person D - "Why should I do that?  I am the paying customer leh."

Oh, wow!
Money is not everything.  The saddest thing, when we think we have it, the world is our slave.  The opposite is true too - when we think we have too little of it, the world is the master.

Person C - "Did you tell him exactly what you wanted?"

Person D - "He should know it what, since he is in the trade.  Anyway, this is also to test his knowledge."

Geez!
Often, we get ourselves so worked out just because we allow our ego to destruct us.  We create the destructive need to feel 'better than' or more 'right' than others.

All in all, it is just a personal choice.

Life is simple.  Life is easy.

If only we are to take charge and to believe that everything is just an opinion and that opinions are always changing and fluid.

Being right does not always equal happiness.

Do we always have to be right?  How can we learn to accept that we are actually not?

Perhaps, when we truly learn about compassion that we shall become less blinded.  When there is a belief, we tend to forget anything even remotely different.  We just want to be right, whether that means that it can make us unhappy, or overworked, or ignorant.

We close up to other ideas around us that could help in everything that we are doing.  Subconsciously, we shy away from the alternative answers from fear it will not line up with our opinion, our judgement, our action.

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No Dimension Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Saturday, July 09, 2011

In many ways, life is never more precious than at the moment of death. Second only to birth itself. 

Sometimes I wonder. How would my life today be should I have had taken a different course earlier in life. Should I have had taken that dream job, just after school, to be a flight steward and not to the career in the banking industry. Would the sky, its glamourous lifestyle (in the 70s and 80s) and all the travel to the different countries make a difference?

Sometimes I wonder. How would my life today be should I have had a different group of friends. Should I have had mingled with another social association and stayed with the 'atas' (elite). Would it change with the way I think or, perhaps, behave? Would it make a difference to who I would become?

Sometimes I wonder. Should I have had not moved out of my parent's place (when I was in my 20s) to venture my independence and learned to be on my own, would I have that great respect for them today? Sometimes I wonder, would a family nurture me or would it be the free will of nature that makes a man. Would it make a different to the way I feel about family values? Would I hold a different ideology for ethical and moral units?

Sometimes I wonder.  What would my world be today should there was no technology.  Should there have had been no Bill Gates.  No IBM and no Intel.  Nor a presence of love and the absence of interests for personal computers.  Should I have had not met a friend, Jimmy who was willing to teach me everything about computing.  Should I have had declined his kind offer to learn.  What will I be doing today?  How would I be spending my time, say, in the search for more knowledge?  Say, in connecting through the world wide web with families and friends?  Say, in my desire to communicate with the Universe?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should creativity be limited, should imaginations be restricted, should fantasies be confined, would there be endless desires for endless choices?  Would these limit our emotions to lessen on, say, greed, hate, disappointment or sorrow?  Would there not be a wide varieties on the fusion of processes?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should I have had given up many of my hopes, would there be a beacon of love left in my soul?  Would I get to a part of where I am today?  Would I have learned that I am stronger than I think?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should I abandon and ease off all those past events and have had taken a different path, would my life today bring more meaning to my own purpose?  Would my spirit take a different dimension?  Would my emotions make any difference today?  Would, with all that I have considered good increase, or decrease, in size, extent and range?  Will the intensity of fulfillments categorize into another form?

Sometimes I wonder.  Should I let myself to wonder.  I wish there is someone whom I could just throw myself in and shared with me about destiny - but not the way the dictionary defines it.  Not by way of the conventional wisdom.  Yes, so long as I want to believe, my life has had taken a shape not because of (as The FreeDictionary defines it):

- The inevitable or necessary fate to which a particular person or thing is destined; one's lot;

-  A predetermined course of events considered as something beyond human power or control; or

- The power or agency thought to determine events.

In some ways, we would think that destiny is our escape clause that life is all predetermined.  That all events and circumstances integrate together.  It will always going to unfold in a certain way.  Despite me and not because of me.

In some ways, should I allow myself to think that destiny has taken its free predetermined role, I would have wasted so much time making tough decisions, taking those chances to have happened.  I would not have then got to deal with my habits, overcoming those obstacles and working hard just to burst my arse to create for a 'better' life.  Hence, what is the point of working hard, taking chances, getting uncomfortable and setting goals?

The thing is, at the expense of all our wondering mind, we are our own creator.  The events, and all these courses along our journey, follow and have been dictated by how we think.  Each thought may take different path and route but the greatest voyage any human being can ever undertake is that of his own creation.

I should, and it is not another 'perhaps', admit that all of my thoughts, my behaviours, my reaction, my plans and goals in life, or part thereof, have been predetermined by my own creation.  How each event will always going to unfold into certain ways.  It is, and will be, the most destructive notion should I allow myself to think that the paths I had taken was pre-ordained and non-negotiable.

Re-creation does not bring any form of rebirth but the reproduction with conscious creativity is.  We have become desperate to change our higher force from the physical to the spiritual level.  We yearn and, continuously reaching up into the unknown, hoping to regenerate.  Hoping that a different event may have a different outcome.  Many of us live our life to remain immature and keep whimpering that we are not good enough to have all the experiences that we (should) feel.

Our world, my world, has become as it is because we allow it to be.  We let, unconsciously, the sense of guilt to prevent and impede us to implore greater possibilities.  To do more than we can.  To achieve more than we could.  We allow ourselves to feel unworthy most of the time.

The best lesson that I learn about life is to allow myself to grow spiritually and to learn to overcome my emotional blocks.   To free myself from all the fragmented forms that are being perceived as errors.  Our journey through time and space, a journey that is completed, must conspire between God and our free choice.

I am responsible for what I see.  I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the goal I would achieve.  Only then, that everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.  I, and all of us, have chosen all the particular events and circumstances of our individual lives.

Our wondering mind, my wondering mind, inflicts pain from our ego choices.  All those painful events are necessary for us to learn from our darkest dreams and wove them into a tapestry of light.  Regardless of all their appearances, it will ultimately lead us to greater good.  We must have a greater insight, and awareness, that it has been our defences from our ego choices that not let us see the blessing shine in every step that we ever took.

Life here on Mother Earth is a spiritual warfare.  We are constantly fighting to produce positive results (and those whose work) and stripping away of all drama so that the physical and spiritual Self can be separated.  We have to find within ourselves the sincere need to grow, to quieten the mind and the emotions.

Everything that is around us, everything in the Universe is energy and a manifestation of energy.  We just have to learn to grow to add a quality and depth to life.

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When Simple Things Aren'T That Simple Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Ah, and so you think so?  And, do you still want to think so?

I think everyone knows, and wants to believe, that: A simple thing is not that simple after all.  That, in all the simplest thing that another simplest casts for yet another not-so-simple act or decision.  The endless chain reaction of an energy breaking the completeness of another to form parts of an ultimate choice.  The division of freewill that loves life till it breaks itself.

We know what is needed is an end to all our untrammeled greed.  Only until we are consciously aware of its presence that it surrenders.  Of unlimited freedom to end up with our unlimited struggles.  Of dominance.  Of mastery. Of monopoly. 

The environment around us, somehow, is much more important than accomplishing the simplest thing.  What we can do, one that we owe it to ourselves, is define what 'enough' means and then live it.  It does not mean living in deprivation or unplugging everything.  We should not let our other voices nattering sales pitches telling us that we are inadequate unless we do certain actions.  Or we buy certain products.  Or we need to fulfill certain conditions.

A soul rich with meaningful and significant sense of BEing is when we achieve sufficiency.  And, discovering what life can be when it is not about having more stuff.  Or, perpetually on a continuous search finding for the best, if any.  Of choosing for real satisfaction instead of the empty satisfaction of mindless acquisition.

Life is all that simple until we become the slave of our analytical mind.  Of insatiable choices, coupled with all our past life experiences,  to ultimately choose (or reject) everything regardless of any internal or external conditions relating to the choice.  It has always based on a free and personal choice between now and the future.

What separates us with the future is in honouring the act of NOW.  A nowist in his nowness stays to experience the fruit of his decision.  Or a decision he hears from the [god's] voice of another person.  He nurtures the choice expanding every possible ways to get the best from it.  Enriching it with experiential experiments and nourishing it with compassion.  He embraces the BEing and trusting his own strength, knowledge and wisdom.  Consequently, he is not saddled with simplicity and fountainhead in choices.

When simple things are not preserved, everything that happens concurs with an act's effects and promises in which all the uncertainty lies.  Struggle and confusion cooperates inasmuch to hinder everything for its welfare and growth.  The mind voids of all power to think, to will or to do any good thing.  We are a step back into procrastination and rendered a spiritual death from a state of faith and grace.

Look back at how we often not act when there is a simple thought asking ask to do certain things.  A simple decision that is able to will and to do what is good. We tend not to act on the source, honouring the blameless sight, but caught in the corruption for what-ifs.  Self determination, which is often regarded as god consciousness within us, is incoherent.  We tend to think that there is a choice better than other choices; or an action that still lacks sufficient causes.

It should not be thought that this view completely denies the freedom of choice.  While we are free to act on our strongest moral impulse and volition, a reconciliation of dual concepts of predestination points to the situation for simplicity.  Everything happens for a good reason and we just have to believe that it is so.  Everything that happens has a necessary element in the process. 

Some things that happen can appear to have no meaning or purpose.  We maybe loss to understand how war, hunger, natural disasters and human sufferings can possibly have any meaning and why these things happen.  It is our limited perspective, especially when we believe our perspective to be the absolute truth, is not able to fully comprehend the meaning of individual things and events in the context of the whole. 

What we perceive is only an aspect of a tiny little part of the whole.  Everything that happens, good or bad, has only one real purpose.  It is to provide us with an opportunity to learn and an opportunity to teach; and all these opportunities point us to do good and to be of humble service to life itself.

We exist in an evolutionary exercise for our consciousness to grow and owe it to be of service to it.  When we understand our purpose to be that of allowing good to come into the world, of being of service to consciousness, everything that happens in our life is seen as a potential means of the beginning and end of higher consciousness.  The everyday tasks and choices that we are faced are simple until we make them hard.

When things do happen and when new situations are brought about or if something goes 'wrong', acting on the simplest thing as they come is an opening for a higher consciousness to flow into and influence us into that situation.  More important than any action is the state out of which that action, or non-action, arises.

When we just want to sit on a park bench in a state of peace and presence for the whole day, doing nothing, accomplishes more in the service of consciousness than years of actions and efforts.  To see the purpose of all things simple fulfill the purpose of our BEing, nothing spectacular needs to be done. 

The only thing we need to be concerned with is to meet every situation and every moment in a state of alert presence.  We do not need to do anything (but just act) in particular, and we do not even need to figure anything out.  The key is absolute surrender and the struggles and internal conflicts will just disappear.

The simple truth is, every situation is an opportunity.  We just have to allow simplicity to act on it immediately and not to question its existence.  However difficult it is for the ego to accept, and however it is out of alignment with the common views of society, we need to respond to everything with unconditional love.  Even when it does not seem, at that moment, to make any sense to do so.  Our ego would encourage us to procrastinate, to defend and fight back and respond with negativity.

Every desires to do certain things, to achieve certain results for a higher consciousness is for the extension of love and kindness.  Of faith and grace.  Of forgiveness.  Of a soul to heal.  To see the purpose behind everything that happens, it is required to go beyond the limits of our mind.  Our mind will usually tell us that it is ridiculous that there is a purpose for all the terrible things that happened and that this is much to simple to be true.

All things are simple.  They are just an energy filled with quality of love.  To know the truth of this is in the realm of a deeper knowing and banish all our doubts and fears.  F.E.A.R. is, after all, an energy of False Experience/Experiments Appearing Real.  When simple things are not that simple, a recognition that is stronger than any words can contain,  would we rather be 'right' than at peace?

For the purpose of everything to be fulfilled, to act on every [simple] choice, the only thing required is for us to surrender and allow life to flow through to accomplish what it will.

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Entrapment Written by : Reiki Sanctuary Date : Monday, August 31, 2009

I always yearn for a quality conversational topic, shared amongst friends, to raise beyond any given boundary to enrich for a higher state of spiritual consciousness.  To come to terms with my spiritual awakening for wisdom.  For its deeper understanding about life and the great insights into the meaning for spiritual enlightenment.  For mysticism and science to live side by side together spiritually.  Waking up the soul purpose and seeking an enriched life and the quest for self actualization. 

I long an earnest and heartfelt grasp of knowledge to further improve myself.  For positive approaches to feed nourishment in my thoughts and actions, constantly reminding myself for the need to self reflect.  To accept failures where I had previously made.  To swallow my pride and unmasked every of my vulnerabilities each day.  To face the world and keep my hopes high each moment.  To alter into a state of higher consciousness.  For the ultimate to reach out to the joy in my heart and peace in my mind.

Two weeks ago, I had a very good conversation with a friend.  Two individuals sharing the frailties of everyday lives.  Each, within  the eternity of the souls with all certain issues surrounding life and death, awakened our spirits.  Swallowing our pride and selling our souls. 

It was a good meeting.  Two friends, sharing self intoxicated offense to moral sensibilities and retreated into inglorious character defeat, unfolded a shameful display of cowardice towards a better understanding of the Self.  Of how our minds wretch to keep quiet, and not let others know and not even to our closest friends, when we are in dire need of help. 

We hold onto our pride that we have inside, and we think, we don't need help.  Our pride keeps us from asking for help, to stop and think for a moment that it is alright to be needy.  We, too often, tend to think that we always have to be strong, to not show that we are weak, and to not let others think less of us.

It was a night of revelation.  No longer important was the taste of our drinks nor the desserts we had earlier ordered.  Nor the initial uncomfortability about the place we were in.  Perhaps, when two souls meet in the nakedness of ego - in self consciousness of its presence, no matter how much comfort we take in the concept of ourselves, the death of the ego-self is the death of the concept of self.  To not know who we are is the shattering of the entire universe.  We were driven into the alley of a higher self; the integral part of the whole creation in mind.

The duality within us, within the mind-body-spirit modality which constitutes our being, encapsulates our entire experience of ourselves and our lives.  Each and every one of us have two distinct aspects within.  These aspects are our constant companions on our life's journey and, no matter how hard we try, we cannot escape them.  Together, they make up our consciousness and our very experience of our Self and our life.

The first aspect represents our appearance and the face we wear in this world.  From the moment we are born, we are given a name, race, gender and social status.  It's called the ego.  It represents us to others and to the world at large.  It is a social need.  It is a necessary defence mechanism, for the mind, that looks at the world and thinks, "I".  "I" is a mask that we wear that is necessary for our spirit to be able to live in this life.  "I" is an accumulated phenomenon, a social by-product of living with others. 

The "I" distinguishes the ability to simply recognizes 'good' or 'bad', 'fat' or thin', 'attractive' or 'unattractive', 'rich' or 'poor', 'smart' or 'stupid'.  In its non-existence, which is far more difficult than merely abdicating arrogance, selfishness or other 'egotistic' tendencies, "I" quickly learn to judge others, mostly, on erroneous bases.  It becomes the only language of thought adopted by the "I" that have ever spoken.

The second aspect is "I Am"; the spirit or our higher self.  It is that part of us that is invisible.  That quietly lives in the inner space deep inside our consciousness.  "I Am" is free spirit and has always been.

Both "I" and "I Am" are the two sides of the same us.  Like two faces of the same coin, they are inextricably connected to each other.  Both are part of the life force, the one primarily concerned with where we are.  While the other is primarily concerned with where we came from and where we are ultimately going back to.

Although "I Am" and "I" are so closely related, they have vastly different demands on both our conscious and unconscious attention.  "I" prioritizes with maintaining it's importance in the world.  It always wants to be right and is convinced of the fact that it is separate from everyone else.  It always strives to have more, to be better and to dominate.  It compares to others, unconsciously, to see how it stacks up outside of itself.

"I Am" seeks to be at peace and being right, and conquering others, is of no concern.  "I Am" has no need for more, the quantitative quality, because it knows that life value comes from within itself and not from what it gains.  Or from what it wins.  Or what it collects and accumulates.

Often, our potential to live life in the image of "I Am" is fully woven into the fabric of "I".  Anything that affects "I Am" affects "I" and everything else.  Anything that affects everything else affects us.  Self reflection is crucial in minimizing the strained woven fabric of creation.  "I" is a stand alone entity and thus sees everything in those terms.  It can only remember the past and guess about the future.  "I Am" can see the past, present and future all at once.

Much of our own inner conflicts arise from a conflict between these two aspects of ourselves.  It presents us with two vastly different and conflicting sets of demands.  Living a more spiritual life, with a greater sense of inner peace and personal fulfillment, is primarily about placing greater emphasis on the higher self and on giving the "I Am" a greater prominence in our life.  It is not a process of slaying the "I" but about learning to subdue its demands in favour of "I Am" to be at peace.

The real question is who we are allowing to run things in our life?  Is it "I Am" or is it "I"?  How do we differentiate between these two aspects in all our actions?  We should constantly not be driven by wanting to have more, by being better than or by being right and dominating.  Echkart Tolle, in his book "The Power of Now" writes "if they do not free themselves from their mind in time, they will be destroyed by it."

Pay attention to our thoughts.  When they are fear motivated, it is "I" at work.  When they are greedy, it is "I".  When they are status motivated, it is "I".  When they are territorial, it is "I".  But when they are fearless, expansive, generous, compassionate, inclusive and harmonious, they are "I Am".

The decisions where "I Am" will steer us towards are always going to lead us in the direction of more love, greater harmony, authentic ease and true joy.  Though the "I" promises these desirable things too, it simply cannot deliver them.  It is not equipped to.

It is important to recognize that "I" is the puppet of reptilian brain that is in charge of physical survival.  It does not have a long view but rather to protect the physical body at the moment of threat.  "I" is short sighted, territorial, greedy, fearful and status motivated.  It masquerades well as being able to offer us all that "I Am" does.

"I Am" is not deceived by appearances and, often, offers us the deep fulfillment that only aligned with soul purpose.  We should drive our life by having a sense of inner peace.  By being compassionate and reaching out to others and giving.  By living in harmony with the flow of goodness of the universe.

That night, my friend and I felt that we were awakened by the divine force behind life.  That we are constantly endowed with the innate ability to create in our lives everything that we desire.  Success, inner peace, love, joy and bliss are all available only when we allow ourselves to look inside.  When we acknowledge "I" and give empowerment to "I Am" to free us from life mediocrity.  Finding the missing link in life is to know that "I" exists for a reason; a condition to look outside ourselves for guidance and even for wisdom.

Looking deep within "I" is the key to unlock the dimension of life for a sense of purpose.  For the discovery of our own spirituality and for that unique and special purpose as a human being.  For that fuel that will drive our life to the deep inner sense.  That night was different that makes all the difference.

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